8.17.2007

"you're an idiot sometimes you know that?"

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id·i·ot [id-ee-uht] –noun
1. an utterly foolish or senseless person.
2. Psychology. a person of the lowest order in a former classification of mental retardation, having a mental age
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call me an idiot, but not to my face. and make sure that i do not find out. period. for if i do, shit, i will not be happy about it. probably forever. as it stands, i remember all the people (2) that have, in my lifetime, called me (either to my face, or i found out) some variation of idiot. it really, truly hurts. especially since i cannot, in both instances, substantiate they calling me what they called me. and worse of all, recovery is never really 100%. with me at least. sometimes i hate the fact that i can dwell on certain issues forever. perhaps i should work on that. but i can't see me working through being called idiot. i don't know how to... i can forgive yes, but forgetting is a long shot.

-idiot.

kunzima emhlabeni

empeleni, isihloko salombhalo asixhumani nesizathu sokuthi ngibhale lesis'qeshana. sekunesikhathi nokho ngagcina ukubhala indatshana ngolimi lwasekhaya, uma ngikhumbula kahle, sekuphele iminyaka cishe emihlanu yonke, kanti futhi kuyabonakala ukuthi ngisho noma ngisakwazi ukuhlanganisa umusho ophelele ngolwasekhaya, uhlanganiseka ngobukhulu ubunzima. engabe iyozala nkomoni ezizukulwaneni eziyolandela thina uma sekuza emkhakheni wezamasiko nobuntu? ngike ngezwa abanye abafokazi bedingida lona loludaba lwamasiko nezilimi, besho bethi nabo abacabangi ukuthi emuva kweminyaka engamashumi amabili kusukela manje, izilimi zethu ziyobe zisamsulwa kuhle kwasemandulo.

ngale kwalokho, kubalulekile bakwethu ukuthi sizame ngazo zonke izindlela ukungakhohlwa imvelaphi yethu ngoba phela yithi thina sizukulwane samanje esinomthelela owedlulele ekutheni izizukulwane eziyosilandela zibe nolwazi kanye nentshisakalo yokwazi kabanzi ngemvelaphi yabo.

okwamanje, ngiyema lapha.

-S.

8.02.2007

dear Souper Sandwich...

it's been a while since you and me met. i long for that reunion. you were the best thing in my life for so long in the past. you had figured me out. not many people are good with that. some tried taking your place. the weird stuff at McHarry's, the Chinese delicacies and even the wors rolls and chicken burgers along Jammie stairs tried to pull a fast one on you. but no, you were too strong for them. without even trying. i liked it a lot sticky. with extra cheese. even with my eyes closed. you totally rocked! i'm sure you still do. how i miss you. how i long for you. one day. one day you and i will be reunited.

-S.

7.23.2007

1 round of sex = ? km

yah, it is now a known secret that i have started "jogging" with the aim of shedding some of those unwanted kilos and look slimmer, just as my mother would want me to look. she says that it ain't kosher being way above your bmi especially in ones workplace because one is then perceived to be lazy, blah blah...

that ain't the point of this post however. jogging ain't fun. for now at least. so after my first few runs, i began thinking..., if one were to replace jogging with sex, how many rounds of sex would make a kilometer of jogging? maybe some being has already done this research and put the results out there, but i was just too lazy to look.

it could really be interesting... i'm thinking "honey, today i want to hit 4 kilometers!" or Doctor: it is imperative that you jog at least 2 kilometers a day, to help with that cholesterol problem..."

so, 1 round of sex = ? kilometers?

-S.

[aside] i have been trying to control my eating habits. especially eating after 7 in the evening. ;)

7.16.2007

wish that you were mine

for a long time now, i have been listening to The Manhattans' last album (methinks) --- "The Manhattans Live in South Africa." it totally rocks! that's the kind of music people, including George W. and bra Bob, should be listening to. from month to month, i have had a favourite song. this time around, wish that you were mine takes the trophy! awesome stuff! here be the lyrics:

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Baby, could we have the same table we had yesterday

Woo, ooh, ooh, ooh

Here we are again
Sipping our drinks just like friends
I wonder if they see the sparkle in your eyes
I wonder if they know that I'm not your guy, mmm, hmm

I wonder if they see
That you don't belong tome
Wish that you could be mine
Mine, all mine, mmm…mmm…

It'll be hard for him to understand
I am his friend and he is your man
I wonder what my lady would say
If she knew I met you everyday, mmm, hmm

Sooner or later
Don't you know they're gonna find out and they'll hate us
Oh, I wish that you could be mine
Mine, all mine, mmm…

It's 2 a.m., the place is gonna close
The bartender looks as though he knows
Everybody's, everybody's made it home
Here we sit again all alone, mmm, hmm

I've got to get up at 8
Don't you know I've got to explain why I'm so late, mmm…
I wish I didn't have to go home
Whoa…oh…whoa…oh…oh…go home

I wish that you were mine, baby
Oh, I'd give you the world
And every little thing your heart desires
--

-S.

take your sms and shove it!

yah, i am sick and tired of them people that send text messages that require a response. first of all, i am not a sms fan. texting is just too tedious and expensive (on my mobile package, i pay R0.75 per text the whole day). i prefer calling.

so, if you know me and you are thinking of asking for something from me, call me. if you send an sms, forget you will ever get an answer. even if you are special. why must i pay for something that YOU want? that is how i feel and i am not sorry for the way i feel.

-S.

7.12.2007

...the bag

sorry, there is nothing inside the bag. nothing. nada. so, what do i put inside? wait, why would i want to put something inside?

anyway, yah. i have been searching for a questionnaire. a particular questionnaire. in this bag. it's not there. obviously because the bag is empty. so can someone out there put something in this empty bag of mine? i dunno, a clue of sort? oh right, the questionnaire! is there a questionnaire that one can utilise as a deterministic method to establish whether a relationship* is (should be) over? you know, those strongly agree - agree - strongly disagree type of questionnaires?

i'm still on course. i'm out.

-S.

* a friend is looking for this btw...

7.09.2007

pick me! pick me!

i have not updated this in a while. and it seems that each time i put something here, it starts with more or less the same line. this must really stop. currently i am on course, a refresher course really, which teaches me about stuff that i ought to have learned in varsity. nice stuff. a real breather from the work environment. [i write this post during class! sshhhh!]

i got an interesting call today. this lady was, long ago, involved with getting me some study funds from the company which i now work for. since grade 10 if i correctly recall. she has now asked if it is possible that i become a 'helper' of some of the students which are in high school through a similar program to that i underwent. these students are from a not so advantaged background and are struggling away on various aspects of their daily lives at some predominantly white 'model c' (is this term still used?) school somewhere in Bedfordview. now these aspects range from social issues to academic issues and all the inbetweens. i am looking forward to this challenge. i hope i can find a way to somehow help them through. i know from experience that it is not nice to be in an environment where you seem to not 'fit-in'. i thank her for giving me this opportunity.

right, lemme get back to the course...

-S.

6.18.2007

the cat, the bag and the bit in-between

i have been dormant, yet again, for over a month. *sigh*. that is rather disturbing. too disturbing in fact. i blame it on the corporate Internet policies that are just too, too tight to allow us some time of our own. ok fine, it’s their time, but can’t it be stolen for just a few hours (this should really be minutes) in a day?

anyway, why did i start this post? it certainly has nothing to do with a cat. or a bag. maybe the in-between perhaps. but i doubt it. maybe liking cats. hmmm…? while on the subject of cats, big ups to the two cats that spring to mind. (Dr) Al, finishing a pea eish (usually called a PhD) ain’t a joke yho! i hope all goes well with the external examination process and everything else that will lead to you wearing that red number! ok, red gown. you are cat number one. cat number two. the way this one has guts, he probably has less lives than the nine that he originally began with. he has travelled the world (and its seven seas perhaps) over and over and is now on a special mission to enrol on one of the top-notch business schools in the universe. mind you, it’s not just as simple as filling in an application form and viola, you are in. you have to believe. spend (time, money and much more). oh, you must also have the courage as well as all the other nitty-gritties that go along with it. dude, keep on rocking yeah! most people, me especially, are inspired. by the both of ya’ll.

now, moving along to white socks. i will not say much on that topic. a picture says a thousand words.


Phathu, i took this way before your post. i thought it looked dodge. thanks for confirming that it does.

and finally, congratulations to the new additions on my “Other Blogs” section. it be a great privilege for me to have you in my blog (and vice versa. or is it just vice versa?).

aha, so this post eventually turned out to be about cats after all. and the in-betweens. where’s the bag? where the hell is the darn bag !?!

-S.

4.24.2007

CAPM [an introduction]

to all of you out there, i just thought i should let you know that i have registered to sit the GMAT test. i will not reveal the date. sorry. me no tell. the next obstacle is now the CAPM (Certified Associate in Project Management). this credential is offered by the PMI (Project Management Institute) and it's a trimmed down version of the PMP (Project Management Professional) offered by the same institute. these credentials are highly regarded in various management arenas internationally, thus the reason why i am jumping onto this bandwagon. enough marketing for the PMI.

in the next couple of months, i shall share with you the ups and downs as i will be preparing for this exam. i have started preparations but they are not 100% in motion. i have drawn inspiration from two or three individuals within my ranks who have either obtained the CAPM credential or are almost there. thanks guys, ya'll rock! i shall keep picking your brains for a couple of months to come.

avenues such as PMStudy, PMCampus and PMHub i have already started exploring. if you know of any other useful resources out there, feel free to inform me. plus, you are also welcome to wish me luck and give support (cash, food, time, kind, all are welcome) for the next few months.

-S.

GMAT and other tales

no, it is not getting my ass tormented, although some may argue that it comes pretty close. so me and Phathu started studying for this thing at more or less the same time. he wrote it. i did not. simply put, i was not ready for the test. numerous reasons. i gave myself until the end of April to write it. the end of April is thus upon me. am i ready to write you ask? yes. i have studied enough to be able to write it . the only glitch here is that i have not booked to sit the test. again, numerous reasons. one of these reasons is probably being scared. what if i write it and i am not happy with the score at the end? i could write again yes, but i only want to write it once and once only. i don't want multiple attempts appearing on my record. tales...

but because i am not a quitter, i will brave myself and book for this darn test. i just need a sign, even a faint one, telling me that its okay to go ahead and try it (i hope my ancestors are reading this).

otherwise, second half.

-S.


3.20.2007

who reads your blog?

i have a fair idea of where my blog is being read from, but as to who exactly reads it, remains a mystery. a whole lot of "what ifs" start trickling in. for instance, what if it's being read by other parties which i never thought would read it? but then again, so what? after all, i am expressing myself. so, if you are out there and you have read (or will read) something directed (or not) at you or at something or someone you know, and you are not liking it, as Bender would say it, "bite my shiny, metal ass!"

-S.

3.05.2007

Helen Zille continues to impress me

yes. i think of her not just as a woman leader, but also as a leader who has high morale, whose daily life is guided and founded upon solid and ethical principles and as a leader who is not reserved to speak her mind out. whatever the situation. in short, she strikes me as a strong leader with a high degree of transparency and as one of a few politicians with a reasonable view of where the country should be heading.

why so much praise you ask? maybe it's because she shows some support to some of my views (this was not so long ago). in a recent news article, she has stood up against attempts to rename Cape Town International Airport. furthermore, she has had guts to question and challenge some of the actions and views emanating from the ruling party, and for that i applaud her.

this country needs more leaders like her so that there is at least some healthy political competition to ensure that the views expressed at a political level are not as one-sided as they have been in the past.

-S.

2.14.2007

it is in the eyes of the beholder

the Western society at large is celebrating, errr, love on this day. well me, i believe that i am just a simple black man who really never understood the whole notion behind Valentine's day. it's the day dedicated to express your love to the ones you love you say? i say to hell with that! you can do it on any other day. in fact, everyday, one is presented with countless opportunities to say to the ones closest to one: "hey, i really appreciate having you in my life!" or "hey, i really miss you in my life!" or even "hey, although i do not tell you everyday, or i do not express it as much as you would like, i really do love you!" simple. really simple!

i was listening to the radio this morning about the trends in the market during and around V's day. the likes of Foschini and Edcon and similar really benefit around this time of the year. people purchasing cards, thongs, g-strings and whatever else for their loved ones. roses selling for a staggering (or should i say whopping) R50 a rose or something that ridiculous. eish!

ooh well, maybe i am adopting this mind set simply because i am broke. yah, it could be that.

-S.

2.08.2007

acronym

sitting, bored, i decided to venture on a mission to find out how acronym is doing in being an acronym. i found about 22 meanings which acronym is an acronym for and i have listed some of them below:
  • Abbreviated Coded Rendition Of Name Yielding Meaning
  • A Completely Random Order Never Yields Meaning
  • American Committee Really Out To Numb Your Mind
  • A Crazy Reminder Of Names You Misplaced
yes, that's 4 of the many meanings.

-S.

2.06.2007

nostalgia

as cryptic as i would like to keep this post, there are some things that are just too obvious from a mile away. there are many reasons why i have this rather nostalgic edge. so many. i think it is for the first time i'm thinking: "do i miss my childhood?" and the truth is that i do. i miss it. although i have a very blury memory of my childhood days, i still believe that i miss it. that way at least, i am comforted. my grandfather (my mother's daddy) was a cool dude. i think. although there were a lot of things that he did which were uncool, i nonetherless still think he was cool. i think he would be really pleased about the progress i have made in my life. he left me too soon methinks. {begin of side-track} my other grandfather (my daddy's daddy obviously) is some version of a dick. ok, maybe not dick, but he is rather reserved. too reserved for my liking. i do not want to have a formal conversation with him. i wanna speak to him as though i was speaking to, errr, my grandfather? is that too much to ask for? i am especially irritated because i feel he does this only to me and none of my other cousins. but what the heck! {end of side-track}

i miss primary school. i was king! everyone knew me. not vice versa unfortunately. i miss high school. high school rocked! i think i was not much of a king there, but everyone still knew me. but not vice versa too. happy times. cool memories.

i miss my aunt (my mother's sister). we never really spoke much me and her but she was a cool person. i think she had the qualities of my grandfather. wherever she's at, i know she is watching over her son. i like my cousin. i hope he grows up to become a strong man. i see potential in him.

varsity? i miss it too. all the relationships that were built up over the 6 years i was there. i'm sure they are solid enough to last me a lifetime.

most importantly though, i miss yesterday. i miss it because it was a lot simpler that today. i miss it even more at a realisation that all my yesterdays will be a lot simpler than my tomorrows.

yes, i miss my childhood.

-S.

1.23.2007

a hunger buster

i was hungry.
i walked out of the office.
i found it.
i ate it.
i became full.
life is good.
but, where do they prepare it?

it has almost been two months since my last post. there are things that i really want to post here since the festive season, it's just that i haven't had the time to do so. weak. i will though. i will. in the nearest of the futures. althought that alone is very relative. but soon. me promises.

i have always had my suspicions when it comes to the stuff (okay, cooked mealies) that is sold around the streets of Pretoria. my main concern was: where do they cook it? i had my theories, but they were finally proven on Sunday. i was driving past Marabastad (some of you might Google this, he he he) and there they were...! theories put to rest. i shall illustrate thus:



yes, a pretty tasty meal indeed. even i cannot produce such tastiness. i've tried. more than once.

oh, i forgot to include the backgound.



enough said.

-S.

12.01.2006

we hate AIDS!

here is my contribution to the fight against aids:




yeah.

a fiver on life:

1. know your status.
2. protect yourself and those you love.
3. educate the uneducated about HIV.
4. live a pos+ life.
5. always sing [the greatest love of all]* out loud.

-S.

* the greatest love of all - [whitney houston]

I believe the children are our future
Teach them well and let them lead the way
Show them all the beauty they possess inside
Give them a sense of pride to make it easier
Let the children's laughter remind us how we used to be
Everybody searching for a hero
People need someone to look up to
I never found anyone to fulfill my needs
A lonely place to be
So I learned to depend on me

[Chorus:]
I decided long ago, never to walk in anyone's shadows
If I fail, if I succeed
At least I live as I believe
No matter what they take from me
They can't take away my dignity
Because the greatest love of all
Is happening to me
I found the greatest love of all
Inside of me
The greatest love of all
Is easy to achieve
Learning to love yourself
It is the greatest love of all

I believe the children are our future
Teach them well and let them lead the way
Show them all the beauty they possess inside
Give them a sense of pride to make it easier
Let the children's laughter remind us how we used to be

[Chorus]

And if by chance, that special place
That you've been dreaming of
Leads you to a lonely place
Find your strength in love

11.07.2006

about the sea 'n all

today i learned that the only sea that is below sea level is the dead sea. no wonder it's dead. while on that subject, i decided to find other trivial facts about the sea. for instance: the sea is the salt waters that cover the greater part of the earth's surface. interesting.

oh, another interesting find, although this was a long time ago, was this following list of the [seven seas]*:

1. Caspian Sea
2. Black Sea
3. Adriatic Sea
4. Red Sea
5. Aegean Sea
6. Mediterranean Sea
7. Persian Gulf
8. Arabian Sea
9. Indian Ocean

there are other permutations of the above. there are other seas. like the one mentioned in the opening sentence of this post. oh, and the Atlantic Ocean as well. and the Pacific. the South Pacific and the North Pacific. and so on...

-S.

* this is also the title of a song done by Babyface, Echo & the Bunnymen, William Pint & Felicia Dale, Marcome and others. Queen did 'seven seas of rhye' while the Orchestral Manoeuvres in the Dark did 'sailing on the seven seas'

11.02.2006

flymango.com or not

this low cost airline's booking system was activated at midnight to tuesday [31.10.2006]. unfortunately, i have no idea what it looks like because since then, the site either has been hogged or it has dismally crashed. shame! to me sepacially. i was hoping to score a cheap-cheap return flight to the mother city at the end of november. alas.

apparently: "The demand has been unprecedented. By 2am there were already thousands of tickets sold, with bookings all the way through to May next year." [iol]

my, and perhaps other people's, concern is: if something that is at grass-root level as the website crashes, what about the main airline itself?

-S.