it is in the eyes of the beholder

the Western society at large is celebrating, errr, love on this day. well me, i believe that i am just a simple black man who really never understood the whole notion behind Valentine's day. it's the day dedicated to express your love to the ones you love you say? i say to hell with that! you can do it on any other day. in fact, everyday, one is presented with countless opportunities to say to the ones closest to one: "hey, i really appreciate having you in my life!" or "hey, i really miss you in my life!" or even "hey, although i do not tell you everyday, or i do not express it as much as you would like, i really do love you!" simple. really simple!

i was listening to the radio this morning about the trends in the market during and around V's day. the likes of Foschini and Edcon and similar really benefit around this time of the year. people purchasing cards, thongs, g-strings and whatever else for their loved ones. roses selling for a staggering (or should i say whopping) R50 a rose or something that ridiculous. eish!

ooh well, maybe i am adopting this mind set simply because i am broke. yah, it could be that.




sitting, bored, i decided to venture on a mission to find out how acronym is doing in being an acronym. i found about 22 meanings which acronym is an acronym for and i have listed some of them below:
  • Abbreviated Coded Rendition Of Name Yielding Meaning
  • A Completely Random Order Never Yields Meaning
  • American Committee Really Out To Numb Your Mind
  • A Crazy Reminder Of Names You Misplaced
yes, that's 4 of the many meanings.




as cryptic as i would like to keep this post, there are some things that are just too obvious from a mile away. there are many reasons why i have this rather nostalgic edge. so many. i think it is for the first time i'm thinking: "do i miss my childhood?" and the truth is that i do. i miss it. although i have a very blury memory of my childhood days, i still believe that i miss it. that way at least, i am comforted. my grandfather (my mother's daddy) was a cool dude. i think. although there were a lot of things that he did which were uncool, i nonetherless still think he was cool. i think he would be really pleased about the progress i have made in my life. he left me too soon methinks. {begin of side-track} my other grandfather (my daddy's daddy obviously) is some version of a dick. ok, maybe not dick, but he is rather reserved. too reserved for my liking. i do not want to have a formal conversation with him. i wanna speak to him as though i was speaking to, errr, my grandfather? is that too much to ask for? i am especially irritated because i feel he does this only to me and none of my other cousins. but what the heck! {end of side-track}

i miss primary school. i was king! everyone knew me. not vice versa unfortunately. i miss high school. high school rocked! i think i was not much of a king there, but everyone still knew me. but not vice versa too. happy times. cool memories.

i miss my aunt (my mother's sister). we never really spoke much me and her but she was a cool person. i think she had the qualities of my grandfather. wherever she's at, i know she is watching over her son. i like my cousin. i hope he grows up to become a strong man. i see potential in him.

varsity? i miss it too. all the relationships that were built up over the 6 years i was there. i'm sure they are solid enough to last me a lifetime.

most importantly though, i miss yesterday. i miss it because it was a lot simpler that today. i miss it even more at a realisation that all my yesterdays will be a lot simpler than my tomorrows.

yes, i miss my childhood.